I am feeling better these days. Making better choices helps. I've been dying to get on the scale and see if I've lost any weight yet. Those two lbs really screwed me up. It was as if I wanted to fail. Every week I was losing weight and every week I felt surprised by it. That is guilt. I have a saying I tell my students " you're only nervous when you aren't prepared" and it's the truth here.
I have always been aware that I am an emotional eater. A "numb me" eater but it never feels like it when I'm IN it. It never does. I am also an eater that freaks out about certain flavor sensation/combinations. Some foods literally induce almost orgasmic reactions and it feels so great it registers as sex in my mind. The same chemical occurances.
My juicing and green drink intake is getting stronger and I am really staying away from any caffeine or sugars. I know that this 90 days is just the beginning. I am far from the end of my journey and PROMISE to start writing again every day. My word is my bond and I refuse to break it.
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