I woke up feeling especially hungry today. From actual hunger? Anxiety from what might have happened when I was asleep? Jealousy of knowing I'd be making some of my favorite foods and not ingesting them?
Last night el husbando and I stayed up late watching Irene out of our window and ZElda barfed grass up a few times so I was up and down. And not the fun kind :-) My in laws have been here since Weds and it's been great having them but difficult to maintain my daily routines.
I have loved cooking big meals all week. It's strange but it's almost like eating it. I know that must sound stupid but spending so much time around it, smelling it and preparing it just does something for me. I guess it's food porn? Yes. I like that. But I know it's a slippery slope. I make something for me to eat but I keep my eyes on their plates, their forks so as to trick my brain into thinking that is what I'm actually consuming and not shredded Zucchini and spinach. I feel like when e.h and in-laws go out I could secretly eat and no one would know! Except me. I would know. I'll admit I've wanted to just slice off a SLIVER of cheese cake but I'm terrified. I don't want to make a less than healthy decision. It's not like I won't ever east cheesecake again just not now. Not TODAY.
I peed on the alkaline strip and I am completely dark blue. That felt good. Stanzi has been very supportive of me and I am so thankful for having her guidance. Living alkaline. Awesome
Today is Sunday and the day I used to weigh myself so I feel a bit obsessed about it right now. I think I will weigh myself on tues and then start up the weekly on Day 30.
Menu (all raw and/or juice)
breakfast juice:
Large bunch kale, celery, spinach, lemon, parsley, ginger and 1 apple
Lunch: Zucchini strips and spinach with dressing of Dates, lemon, olive oil and himalayn salt
Dinner: black beans,tomatoes, romaine, avocado, onion and carrots
Juice of kale, cucumber, lemon and apple
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