Day 23 Does my will power suck?

Day 23 of 90

Tomorrow I weigh myself. One full week from ending a maintained menu and on my own again so to speak. My in laws had their Amtrak train cancelled again so my MIL flew straight to Ga from here and my FIL leaves tomorrow. They'd left us $60 to take ourselves out to dinner for having everything served to them this week (my pleasure) but since the FIL stayed. He really wanted to eat in a restaurant... but where I could eat as well...(which are not close at all) so we decided to try this place called Otarian. It was vegetarian but there were no raw options and their salad bar was kind of nasty with only kale and beets. I thought if I was going to eat something non raw it would have to be something I REALLY love. So, I said I wanted sushi. And, I ate sushi. Boy did I eat sushi...

2 sashimi yellow tail

4 spicy tuna pieces

2 yellowtail pieces

3 yellowtail/tuna/avocado pieces

1/2 cup edmamme

soy sauce, ginger slivers and wasabi

Why did I eat it? Aren't I serious about this 90 day journey? How serious am I if once a week I have a meal that isn't completely raw or juiced? I think I probably had 1/2 cup rice total on the sushi and some of the rolls had "crunch" in them which I think are Panko crumbs. I don't want this to be a pattern. Please. Don't let it be a pattern. The sodium/salt from the soy sauce alone probably shocked my system. How will this affect my weight loss? Water retention? Calories?

I do not want to get sick. My stomach doesn't feel like immediately barfing like last Tues #6 incident but I feel so FULL. Bloated really. I'd begun to feel less puffy (or marshmallowy as my sister said) but right now I feel kind of gross. And fat. I used to love this feeling but right now I feel weighted down. I can't really explain it. A better choice would have just been the seaweed and fish. But I don't like the way that tastes! I like a super wasabi and soy mixture and dunking each piece...

I'd said I would be under 200 tomorrow. I am scared. I want to say that this upcoming week I'll be more strict. The first time was at the end of the 10 day LC program and this was night 7 of my first combo/week. This second "cheat" is a few days earlier only one week.

I think I will add a daily exercise regiment as well to spark things up...

Lemon Water

Morning Juice:

Carrots, cucumbers, spinach, kale, red pepper, lemon, ginger, 2 green apples

Green Drink

Lunch:

Spinach, romaine, carrots, pumpkin seeds, avocado and home made dressing

Dinner was named above...