Go-Go Groceries!

I just got back from the market. Living green can be insanely expensive but fortunately I live close to Stiles Market(s) and they have shockingly low prices. Mangoes for a buck! Bunches of celery $1! avocados $1.50!! This will last me about 2 1/2 days.

For everything I bought I paid $39.45. Saturday night, when Stanzi comes, I will get a meal plan. We'll shop for those items that afternoon.

I know it looks great but I'd be lying if I didn't say I'd MUCH rather be having a #6 right now! What's that you ask? Oh, only the best freaking fast food ever! It's at Wendy's. Spicy chicken sandwich, large fry and Dr pepper no ice (so I can get more soda and just use ice at home :-) I swear I'd punch a kitten right now for one of those! Ok PETA I really wouldn't but got-damn! That or a fat ass plate of nachos with extra cheese and ground beef!

I got my blood tests back. My cholesterol is 207. Just last year it was 358!! Lots of #6's to get that high. I know the juicing I've been doing this week has flushed out a lot of it that's for sure and I expect my level to go waaaaaaay down from here. However my triglycerides are at 309 and should be below 150. Ouch and my HDL is 43 when it should be greater than 46. I also have a huge Vitamin D deficiency. I will be taking blood tests every month just to see the changes in my body chemistry.

Dr M asked me if I read his materials on losing weight and I told him I didn't think eating like I resided in a 3rd world country would be very healthy for me since the article had said "some people get two cups of rice a day and maybe a potato, tomato or fish twice a week."

Part of my food addiction comes from living that way as a child. Sometimes not knowing when or what the next meal would be. Would it be a case of grapes that Mom "found" outside the grocery store? Would I have time to stuff cookies in my mouth at a friends house while her family wasn't looking? Would my Dad have brought another new woman home and we'd get to eat whenever she felt like cooking? I read Jeanette Wall's book The Glass Castle. I felt like in someways it was my story. Especially when it came to the food experiences.

I have fallen in love with eating half an avocado with course ground pepper and lime juice.. omg so delish! Also el husbando brought home a pint of Cinna-Buns ice cream and I wanted some so bad! I sliced open the top 1/3 of a mango and ate it with a tiny spoon. When I was scraping the sides I think I tricked my brain into thinking it was scraping up and turning over the last chocolately ball of NY Super Fudge Chunk...

My hips ache and my feet are swollen today. Another reminder as to why I need to get healthy. I understand that aches and pains come with aging but I think a lot of the food choices I was making only increased my symptoms. I can't wait to wear my engagement ring again when my hands don't swell up and are smaller in general.

My face is unbelievably broken out! I've never had acne this bad, even as a teenager! All of this cleaning of the body makes a person smelly, irritable, achy and now pizza face. Pizza yuuuuuum. Crap.