I'm a bit tired today. My father in law decided to just fly home instead of try and wait for yet another train. It was great having them. They're very supportive and a lot of fun. I think I enjoyed cooking for everyone so much because as I'd said before, if I can't eat it I want to watch someone eat it instead!
Today was my long teaching day as well. It's always hard to get food or extra juicing in because of the prep. There isn't a lot of "just eat" foods. Fruit is the easiest but I'm trying to stay away from over indulging in the sugars. I wish I could get my taste buds to be stoked over biting into a tomato or some celery but it just doesn't pack enough punch for me. I'm a sauce FREAK. I think I could make any meals out of just sauce and bread! Let's see...
Olive Garden breadsticks and Alfredo sauce (I dream of it's warm, salty, creamy goodness!)
Sizzler cheddar toast and the Chicken hibachi sauce (Sizzlers are in Calif)
Garlic Naan and tikka masala sauce (or any indian sauce really)
Biscuits and Gravy
Crusty baguette with olive oil and balsamic vinegar
Garlic toast and Marinara
The list goes on and on and on and on... Although the kale, spinach and carrots taste good I'm dealing with 40 years of food memory. It's like asking a circus bear to return to the wild and fend for himself. Ok, maybe it isn't but you get the picture. It is a daily struggle and I'm fighting the urge to stigmatize foods as bad or good. Punishment or reward. Food has always been a reward for women. Men experience this as well but I've found women are much more food motivated then men. Women are willing to do to a lot to compensate food intake like wear spanx from head to toe, eat one day and then not the next, smoke instead of eat, exercise furiously or good ol bulimia or anorexia. I'm changing my relationship with food. It is NOT just for taste. Do I only wear satin and cashmere because it feels the best? No. Do I only wear green because it's my favorite color? No. I need to be the same with food.
Stanzi's emails have proven to be somewhat of a manual. Plenty of questions to keep my mind occupied and my soul being searched. I'm finding it hard to GET motivated about more exercise. I see myself doing it but I just don't. I also need to increase my water intake. I've only had about 2 liters today and I should be drinking about 4 liters.
I had some social things tonight and it was curious just ordering seltzer water the whole evening. No nightclub or celebration food. Just me drinking up the agua and burning calories by trying to keep my legs together while sitting on a bar stool. No easy task for a large lady.. try it you'll see..
Juice Breakfast:
1 Cucumber
1 Bunch Kale, Spinach and celery
1 Lemon
1/2 inch ginger
2 apples
Parsley
Lunch
Raspberries, mango and avocado salad
Green drink
Dinner
spinach, romaine, pumpkin seeds, almond butter dressing
Lemon waters
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