I sense a trend. I'm beginning to skip days in my entries. I will stop that immediately! I need to write every day. I need to continue with honesty and openness. These past two days have been good. I reconnected with Stanzi on Monday and we talked a lot about what's blocking me exercise wise. The last time I got my heart rate up really high I had a panic attack. I think my body mistook adrenaline for fear, or more likely, chose to put fear behind the adrenaline vs that adrenaline of excitement, thrill, etc...
I want to be that runner. My friend Rick T runs every day. He also eats a shit ton of "crappy" food.. chili dogs, bacon wrapped burgers, deep fried cheese and I've often wondered if the reason he is so dedicated to running is so he can eat all that fatty food and stay so slim. His wife BJ too. (ok Rick, time to answer..lol)
I also have another friend Mazz whose said "of all the people I know, I'd have expected you to enjoy getting all sweaty and kicking ass". She is a huge inspiration to me. Triple black belt in Hap Ki Do and could give Angela Basset a run for her money in the "gun show." I think she's right. It IS shocking that I don't treat my body as an awesome vehicle instead of it being an anchor.
I go to the docs tomorrow to FINALLY get my blood work done. It will take a week to get the results too. It is beginning to feel like a lifestyle but I'm not fooling myself. There is a doughnut lurking around every corner...
Breakfast Juice: Celery, 2 tomatoes, 1 clove garlic, 2 carrots, spinach, kale and beet
Lunch: pecans, 1/2 avocado, 1 green apple, Green drink
Dinner: "Burritos" guacamole, salsa and zucchini wrapped in lettuce leaves
Snack: Almond butter, green apple
Lemon waters
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