I tried to call my doc today to make an appt but he's gone until next week. So, I have to wait another week to find out what my blood levels are. I had a show tonight and a few of the gals said how glowing my skinned looked. I asked one girl if she could see a difference in my body at all since she saw me at my bday party a month ago and she said no. I appreciated her honesty but was hoping for a yes.
I can feel a difference and like the way I feel I have to say. I still want coffee in the morning for the taste and ritual but now have juice. I still smell pizza and drool but I have smoothie/soup instead. I still want a big ass Dr Pepper but I have homemade seltzer water and lemon.
It's great to have el husbando as a cheering squad. He's always SO positive and it's amazing to have him in my life. I want to be healthy so i can enjoy a long life with him and the monkey doodles.
I think a lot of my weight issues stem from protecting myself. As grossed out as I am by my body I also find myself squeezing my belly rolls when I'm in bed because it's comforting. Am I remembering squeezing a boob and getting nutrition? Our subconscious works in such mysterious ways. It's virtually impossible to pinpoint exact memory/lifestyle shapings. Does this make sense? An example might be someone who enjoys the feeling of being smothered. They might just have a memory from being a baby and being swaddled and therefore secure. It's all so woven together yet all hypothetical...
I'll be having a chat with Stanzi on Mon. As I said it will be great to hear what she has so say and offer up.
Breakfast Juice: Kiwi, kale, spinach, Meyer lemon, carrot, apple and cucumber
Lunch; Kale, spinach, mixed baby greens, 1 avocado, 1/2 cob corn niblets, pumpkin seeds , 1 pear
dressing: dates/lemon/OO
Green drink (all out and need to get more)
Dinner: 2 piece watermelon, 3 celery, 2 tbsp almond butter
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