These past two days have been reckless. After the death of an associate and Clinton being away again I found myself drinking decaf coffee with soymilk, I also ate some cookies leftover from my student recital tonight. Cranberry oatmeal drizzled with white fudge and one caramel black sea salt candy bar
( I know, I know, I know.. sheesh...why keep buying them if I'm going to slip on occasion?) Because I am a jack ass that's why. I seem to want to kill myself with food. I must be on a mission to defy logic and ONLY feed my wants and not needs. Why else would I be 1 lb from my first 20 lb goal and then start acting like an idiot?
STOP! STOP! STOP! STOP! STOP! Do NOT fuck this up Shelly!!
I HAVE TO GO BACK TO JUST PLAIN JUICING FOR A BIT.
I NEED TO RECOUP.
I CAN'T BE TRUSTED ALONE WITH FOOD YET
why am I yelling? Because I'm scared that's why. Fucking terrified.
Breakfast Juice: kiwi, cucumber, carrot, apple, pear, kale, lemon, ginger and spinach
snack decaf coffee with soy milk millet bread (completely gross by the way but wheat and gluten free)
Lunch: Almond/pecan mix, tuna, avocado
Dinner: leftover Juice, two TBs almond butter, broccoli, celery, strawberries, grapes cookies, candy bar
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